the challenge

"Goodness! You will definitely have your hands full." - my Doctor's comment today about B2's arrival plus my toddler 1st born I'm sure this is the first thing people want to say or think of when they find out that I am having my 2nd child just when my 1st one is only 17 months old. Well, know what that was my 1st thought too when I first saw those 2 red lines in the Test! It was so weird because I could still freshly remember how I hated doing the Test because I always get the dreaded 1 line. That was our challenge with our 1st child. Our 2nd one came as unexpected as a fountain in the Sahara Desert! When I tested and went for a check up, I was already 12 weeks pregnant!!! We were amazed because the discovery was after the tedious 1st-time-with-baby vacation in Philippines. B2 is definitely a toughie!

Since then up until now my mind is always playing with the BIG CHALLENGE that is ahead. I do worry about how I will be able to cope. My overwhelmed response to Triyah's arrival is still very fresh in my mind and my body can still clearly remember. I cannot even just SLEEP anymore. I worry about being the mom I want to be with them. Sheesh! The moment I found out I immediately made arrangements to close my online shop as I wanted to give Triyah all the time and attention she deserves. I still constantly worry. No wonder I feel so tired.

But... You know what, I always believed that everything happens for a reason. So, I will give myself more credit as a mother and take on this challenge with a smile. After all, I am now a mom. It's different now. Plus, I never wanted a lonely child so it's just right that I get started specially when I am looking at having more than 2 or 3. Gotta get on it before I get too old. Hehe.

So, to this BiG Challenge... Bring It On! There is nothing more rewarding and amazing than the joys of being a mom. It's a tough job but just one smile, a hug, a kiss and a call "Mama" - everything is just bliss. =)

I am exactly where I should be...
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